Did you ever stop to wonder how all of the people, places and things had to happen to get you where you are right now!?
I can look back and be in total awe at how I was “in the right place at the right time”.
I can “bless the mess”, because, YES, there has been contrast, AND through that contrast I know I have gained clarity!
Here is how I got to this time and space right now, it’s 2:53am as I am working on the copy for this site and I want to tell you a story.
I am your average human being.
I am forty sumthin’.
I have worked for myself for over 20 years.
In my years of self employment, I have had employees, no employees, big overhead, little overhead, lots of money, no money…
I have been in 3 serious relationships. (still in the 3rd)
I wanted something to show for all of my hard work!!
I bought a house.
I felt I wanted something more…what?
I bought a car!
I started consulting in my field (graphic design, textile screen printing) FUN, I like to teach and I like to learn and I was too afraid that I couldn’t make it doing that so I hung on to all the work I wasn’t fond of doing.
2005 My mom passes from physical. LIFE SUCKS. I AM so sad, I AM so angry!
I hired people to do my work and used all of my resources to keep my business going.
I AM depressed!
I roll around in “it”, I stay “stuck” in it!
I get sick! I Am borderline diabetic, high cholesterol, over weight, menopausal!!!!!
My business is sinking. My relationship on edge!
2007 I walk outside my back door and look up to the heavens and I say “GOD, take me off this earth or give me an answer, I AM done I AM tired and I GIVE UP!”
When I walk in the door my partner says she has just spoken with her mom and her mom shipped a present to me and I was to open it as soon as I get it.
A day later a box came in the mail and it was the book “The Astonishing Power of Emotions” By Abraham-Hicks and a CD on Death and Grief.
I started reading the book.
I read it several times within the next few weeks.
A light bulb went off !
I realized, I do have control over my life! I create it based on how i feel!
I wanted to tell everybody AND I will say that not everyone is ready for this “bright and shiny, happy message”. Especially those that are looking at what they don’t have and how God hates them and how life sucks! (That was me circa 2005-2007)
2008 I formed a local group called the Atlanta Law of Attraction and Creativity Group and started meeting people who didn’t think I was off my rocker. They welcomed my cheery disposition and didn’t roll their eyes or “glaze over” when I shared my AH HA’s!!
2009 I received an email through my meetup group from someone wanting to talk to me about my group. I thought it was meet-up just asking questions and checking in, I scheduled a time to talk.
The guy on the line was telling me how he was looking for affiliates in the major cities and how he liked the “energy’ of my meet-up page.
We started having a very interesting conversation and I told him my story.
I was studying to become a Reiki Master at the time so we talked about that too.
We talked about art as a channeled medium, writing as a channeled medium, have channels on radio…
It was one of the coolest conversations!
He then asked me if I would be interested in doing a radio show.
I still wasn’t sure how all this tied into meet-up and then he explained that he wasn’t with Meet-up, he and his partner Lis were creating a radio station based on Law of Attraction and they were looking for people to get on Air and have discussions, interviews, really anything we wanted to do as long as we shared examples of LOA and our experiences.
I was so nervous yet something in me said go for it!
September 23, 2009 I spoke for 55 minutes without interruption, telling my story, my sadness, then my light bulb, my clarity.
I had no control over my mothers passing! I also realized that for me to stay in touch with my moms energy, I had to raise my vibration and that means get happy! Really Happy! I also realized because of all that…contrast…I decided that it was time to start LIVING my life!
I started to realize that there was MORE that I wanted to do, places I wanted to go, experiences that I wanted to have AND I was holding myself back.
The next 6 months, Tre and I spoke often through Skype and phone, and he certainly became a mentor to me and, I am sure, others.
March 2010, I receive a message that Tre passed from physical.
Whoa AND Wow!
What do I do now? What do we (my SER family) do now?
In the next week I would received messages from Tre to pass on to Lis, his partner.
I would receive messages from him through total strangers.
I flew to New York City, where I met for the first time, many of the hosts from Source Energy radio.
We celebrated (and still do) all that Tre did (and still doing).
Tre was the creator and production coordinator for Source Energy Radio and when he left, it stopped.
I had an idea, Tre taught me bits and pieces about radio and content and I understood what he was doing.
He was about connectivity and perspectives.
He was about sharing that we are all channels and create our own illusion!
I told Elizabeth about my idea and we ran with it.
So… here I AM, WE ARE, it has been over 2 years since all of that and we have grown so much.
Internally and externally, i see us busting at the seams. We have hosts patiently waiting for Air Time.
We have enough content to start streaming (yes Tre, we are doing it).
I want to Thank everyone of you for stopping by and sharing in the energy that IS UNIVERSAL!
It IS yours! It IS mine! We, at some point, are one!
There is, of course, more to the story…and…
that will wait for the next expansion, just around the corner…
ESPAVO MY FRIENDS!
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